How can this be happening?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

 Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT)

As I go through this divorce, I realize that there are so many ups and downs that it drains me mentally and physically.  Today is a bad day, and I will always be honest with my readers.  We won’t always have good days, so we should discuss them and how to use God’s word to bring us through these lonely times.

I could never understand how God’s will would be for my wife to leave me, and really still don’t.   With this in mind, I have to start looking at things I DO understand.  I understand who God is and who His Son is and what His Son did for me.  So with that in mind, I have to make myself focus on His will not my own.  The verse talks about not depending on your own understanding, and that’s because we can’t understand what God’s will for us is sometimes, in our human mind.  Sometimes we just have to trust and know that God is in control and just keep our minds focused on Him.

I say this almost with tears in my eyes.  I am not some super Christian who just handles things well all of the time.  I am a lovesick husband and father of 3 who is still in shock with all that is going on.  I do trust that if I seek Him, He will show me which path to take.  My struggle today, is simply to stop my bellyaching and give God glory for all He has done for me.  Thank you Father!  I am also struggling with some anger I have toward my spouse, who by the way, has made this as easy as humanly possible.  I get mad at her, but she is only being honest with me.  I still love her deeply and hopefully will always love her.  She is a wonderful mother, and I have enjoyed the years and the children God blessed us with.

Father, I am on my knees.  I feel like a broken man.  Please reveal to me your will for my life.  Please help me not to try and understand what is going on in my life, but to just turn it over to you.